Hello everyone ( I think everyone actually refers to you, my girls haha and erm, perhaps random strangers who chanced upon this blog)
This shall be my last blog post for this blog XiangNi Cafe.
This blog was set up with the purpose of keeping a 'diary' of the happenings of Daphne and Ruixiang as a couple, but as of a week ago, we broke up. So I suppose there isn't any more purpose in continuing to blog, under this blog address.
2011 had been a really, really trying year. We broke up once and patched back, but somehow things did not work out again. I still wanted a go at it despite the 1st failure, but Ruixiang decided enough was enough.
If you ask me how I am feeling right now, I will say that I am feeling a lot of things haha.
Devastated, because a 3 year relationship has to come to an end. So many memories and promises just.. poof! disappeared.
Tormented, because for those of you who don't know, we broke up because Ruixiang no longer has feelings for me. So its hard for me to move on in a way, because I know I still have feelings for him but oh well..
Very lonely. Self-explanatory.
I hope that this break up will lead to something better for me, that I will eventually find a better person who can click with me even better. :)
While this will be the last blog post, I don't think I will take down/remove this blog, at least not now. Will let you girls know my new blog address when I take to blogging again! Thanks for all the support and kind words :)
Each agent, wittingly or unwittingly, is a producer and reproducer of meaning... it is because subjects do not know what they are doing that what they do has more meaning than they know. --- Bourdieu---
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Week 5 of school! And im now thinking about my recess week ( week 8) already. Was thinking of a short getaway for about 3D2N or 2D1N, all in under $150. But I need people to go with!!!! Rx not keen to go, so any of you girls thinking of heading somewhere to relax?
Life kinda sucks now. But thank God for school and lessons and projects to keep me going. I wished I had a school companion to go to school with!! Maybe I should get a tamagochi or something portable to carry around with me wherever i go hahaha. Sigh.
I realize I like to plan things ahead.Taking care of details, and making sure things are under my control as much as possible. Sometimes I wonder if I cared too much about things that I fail to see what can be controlled, and what can't. But at least some things can be controlled, right? Of cuz some things might be predestined but I want to know that i have tried at least. Gahhhh..
On a side note, I wish there were more affordable places to go to when im bored.
Life kinda sucks now. But thank God for school and lessons and projects to keep me going. I wished I had a school companion to go to school with!! Maybe I should get a tamagochi or something portable to carry around with me wherever i go hahaha. Sigh.
I realize I like to plan things ahead.Taking care of details, and making sure things are under my control as much as possible. Sometimes I wonder if I cared too much about things that I fail to see what can be controlled, and what can't. But at least some things can be controlled, right? Of cuz some things might be predestined but I want to know that i have tried at least. Gahhhh..
On a side note, I wish there were more affordable places to go to when im bored.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Week 2 of school now, and it still feels like a holiday cuz i only have lessons on Tuesday and Friday :D
Quite sad that this will be my final year in school... I actually like studying a lot ( as compared to work ) and I think i'd rather study forever. If my dad is willing pay, I will stay in school till I get sick of books. Hur hur.
When I think of work, I think of the uncomfortable work clothes and and disgusting train rides in the morning. And then the air conditioned rooms that are usually so cold that I need to wear a winter jacket after 3 hours.
On a side note, I ended my part-time work at TANGS last Sunday. Was selling eco-friendly bags called 'Candy Wrapper Bag' that were made out of candy wrappers. They look pretty and its stylish, but the price is pretty steep. It costs about $70 for a clutch, and $200+ for a handbag. Was so tempted to get one for myself cuz of its unique-ness but.. I only earned $6/hr =( I will need to use up all my salary plus top up another $100 to afford one handbag. lol
Rx and I planning to have some activities this weekend.. Hopefully we dun go over budget. Also a great time for me to snap some pictures.. I realized that this blog is in dire need of pictures..
Quite sad that this will be my final year in school... I actually like studying a lot ( as compared to work ) and I think i'd rather study forever. If my dad is willing pay, I will stay in school till I get sick of books. Hur hur.
When I think of work, I think of the uncomfortable work clothes and and disgusting train rides in the morning. And then the air conditioned rooms that are usually so cold that I need to wear a winter jacket after 3 hours.
On a side note, I ended my part-time work at TANGS last Sunday. Was selling eco-friendly bags called 'Candy Wrapper Bag' that were made out of candy wrappers. They look pretty and its stylish, but the price is pretty steep. It costs about $70 for a clutch, and $200+ for a handbag. Was so tempted to get one for myself cuz of its unique-ness but.. I only earned $6/hr =( I will need to use up all my salary plus top up another $100 to afford one handbag. lol
Rx and I planning to have some activities this weekend.. Hopefully we dun go over budget. Also a great time for me to snap some pictures.. I realized that this blog is in dire need of pictures..
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
I cannot sleep. This is the horrid-est day of my life. I feel so lost, with nothing for support.
Im so angry that he actually cheated on me.
Then, I feel so betrayed.
And because I ended it, I feel so sad.
And this myraid of emotions keep repeating itself again and again in my head. Thoughts of what they had done, of what we could have in the future if this hadn't happened, is making me switch between agony and sorrow.
One moment i'm pining for him, then the next I feel slapped in the face and twisted in my heart when I recall how he has already moved on and had fun with another. I thought I was the only special one, but I was so wrong.
How I wish that every teardrop will take away 1 painful memory.
What a silly, silly little girl you have been Daphne.
Im so angry that he actually cheated on me.
Then, I feel so betrayed.
And because I ended it, I feel so sad.
And this myraid of emotions keep repeating itself again and again in my head. Thoughts of what they had done, of what we could have in the future if this hadn't happened, is making me switch between agony and sorrow.
One moment i'm pining for him, then the next I feel slapped in the face and twisted in my heart when I recall how he has already moved on and had fun with another. I thought I was the only special one, but I was so wrong.
How I wish that every teardrop will take away 1 painful memory.
What a silly, silly little girl you have been Daphne.
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