Gigi passed away last night around 1am.
Was clearing her cage as usual, when i saw her lying in a corner breathing very heavily. So I thought its time to change her bedding, but then she stumbled out of the corner, and ran out of the cage into the toilet roll outside. I tapped her toilet roll and call her name, then she came out and lay down in a corner of the box..
And then she started tumbling , and each tim she tried to get up, she stumbled and stumbled. Again, again. And again. And I knew then, that she wasn't going to make it through the night.
So I picked her up in my palm and held her against my chest. I can feel her laboured breathing ( I finally understood what books mean when they say laboured breathing), and for the first time in her life, she didn't struggle or squirm in my palm. She just lay there, curled up while I stroked her fur.
She kicked a little a few times, very weak and feeble attempts to get up, but she still tumbled everytime. Nick was beside me, and then I saw her taking very, very deep breaths. Her mouth was gaping like a fish out of water, and I turned to Nick and asked him to see what is happening. I only turned my head for a second, 2 seconds at most, and then she just stopped breathing altogther.
My eyes widened and I just stared at my hamster in my palm.
I cried the whole night. She was such company to me and she had a lot of will to live. Even a few hours before she passed away, she was eagerly getting sunflower seeds from me and running about on my palm.
I hope you are having a lot of fun in hamster heaven, Gigi. At least you no longer have to care about your diabetes or cataract, and you can eat all the sunflower seeds in the world. I wised I could have fed you your favourite grapes before you left. Im going to miss you a lot.
