breathe slowwwww.....

Finally. I can take a break from all the crap reports and presentations that have deprived me of sleep, food and oxygen.

*BREATHHHEEEE*

gotta buy scratchy's stuff tmr. A scratching pole ( he's been clawing everything, especially Rx's computer wires and his poor leather sofa), and more sand. To coat his repulsive, pungent,vomit-inducing smelling shit. Ergh.

Anyway, scratchy is our kitten. Found him stuck in a car engine.. Its a 'him' I think.. Rx have been tickling its dick. not sure if its the dick anyway. HAHA





And we need to get a new house for Gigi. Seems like her old one has some rough edges inside, so it has been sand-papering her fur away. Been seeing huge volumes of fur everywhere in her villa.


Sigh. The amount of $$ i'll need to spend on these 2 kids.... Enough for me to go to Langkawi and back.

Anyway, had a quickie dinner at Sakae Sushi with nick and papa and mama today. Their food basically sucks.Their standard have dropppppeddd.... so sad.. and the service is well, bad. I ordered chawanmushi and it took them at least 30 minutes to get the damn steamed egg to me. And when Nick asked why take so long, the waitress said, 'erm. we are still steaming it..."

-.- lame.

So after 15 minutes, when the chawanmushi STILL haven arrived, nick ask, ' you all still steaming it ah...?'

LOLS.. Seriously, how long does it take to steam an egg? my 75-year old Ah Ma can get in done in 20 minutes la. What more for a restaurant.. Pfffff.

Just sent in my internship application.. Hope i get it >.< else i won't be able to go for my exchange in Poland next year.. Sobs..

Disappointment

Wonder why it is spelt as 'disappointment'?

I think it is because of the 'appointment' in disappointment. A dis-appointment.

And as usual, i face dis-appointment from the same people today. Regarding the same things. And talking about it doesnt help, because im shut out from your world.

How much dis-appointment can a person take?

screwed.

I think i should do a documentary, like Super Sized Me.
And I shall call it Super Crazy Me.

Been sleeping at 4-5am the past week because of deadlines and the mid terms, so my body clock is fucking screwed. Nick has a new job assignment that requires him to start work at AMK at 615am ( crazy employer) so he needs to get up by 4.30am, and I have been his personal alarm clock. Cuz I just need to shove HIM out of bed before I go to bed at 4.30am.

And I'll wake up at 9.30am if there's school , or 12noon if i have no lessons that day. Then i'll have to start studying/projects till evening, and have dinner. And i'll be so zoned out, 8-11pm is catching up on emails and replying frantic project group members, and the occasional facebooking so that my social life isnt't completely severed. Not like facebook helps much anyway.. ha!

I miss my naps. I miss sleeping at 2am. I miss my health.

So I dunno if its the lack of sleep, the weird ungodly hours that i sleep, or my hormones doing the cha-cha in my head that is causing me to be SUPER cranky these days. I practically snare at pple who get in my way, and I think i have a face that reads DEATH across my forehead. I forgot when is the last time I genuinely smiled.

And i hate the burger king outlet at causeway point. their service is fucking fucked up. I went there this afternoon and there were 3 counters in operation, and there were 3 queues of people. So i joined the counter 1 where there's only 1 customer in front, and she was already getting her order so i figured my turn would be quick. THEN, THE FUCKING AUNTIE LOOKED AT ME IN THE EYES, AND THEN MOVED OVER TO COUNTER 2 WHEN THERE'S ALREADY AN INDIAN TEEN WAITER SERVING THE CUSOMERS. SO I FUCKING STOOD THERE AND SHE JUST IGNORED ME. HER FUCKING FUCKED BRAIN FELLOW AUNTIE WAITRESS WALKED OUT FROM THE STUPID ROOM IN THE BACK, LOOKED ME IN MY EYE, AND ALSO IGNORED ME.

AND THE BEST PART? THE MANAGER SAW ME, THEN JUST WALKED AWAY. WHEN I WAS AT THE FRONT OF THE FREAKING COUNTER AND THERE ISNT'T EVEN A 'CONUTER CLOSED SIGN'.

I THOUGHT THE INDIAN GUY WOULD HAVE MORE BRAINS, AND SEE THAT I AM STANDING THERE, RIGHT THERE IN FRONT FOR FUCK'S SAKE, AND SERVE ME. BUT HE JUST IGNORED ME AND ATTENDED TO SOME OFFICE LADY THAT JUST CAME IN FROM OUTSIDE.

I am too frustrated now to type a complain letter, but i am going to do so when i wake up later. anyone have burger king management email?

their service is fucking appalling. its disgusts me.

Sometimes

Sometimes,

I feel like the loneliest person in the world.

mamee says I should be more open-minded.

And i wonder... what does that mean?

Sometimes,

I walk along the road, thinking,

thinking.thinking, thinking

and nothing makes sense of my thoughts.

Sometimes,

I ask myself why i even bother to think at all?

Because loneliness catches up with you

And you just wind up being lonelier than ever.

Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes.