reaching the end of summer holidays

I hope my cough goes away soon. There's about a month to go before school reopens.. and already the bidding is giving me a headache. Never imagined that i had to go to round 3 of bidding just to get the darn lesson. Damn sickening. Im paying premium fees of what, close to S$10,000 a year and here i am worrying that i can;t even get to ATTEND class. what shit.

summer holiday is coming to an end.. so sad. =( im coming up with a list of places i wanna go before i start school and exams.. some really weird ones but oh well. i just hope i get healthy enough to last half a day without dozing off. the past few bed-ridden days have been depressing. nothing much i can accomplish with a semi-conscious mind and body.. so a typical sick day is like this:

12 noon: wake up, have a banana or some bread that might turn mouldy soon
1-3pm: check emails, play games
3-6pm: eat some porridge and then sleep.and sleep.and sleep some more.
6-8pm: wake up, drink water. go back and sleep
8-10pm: watch a bit of TV, have dinner
10-1am plus: play com games, listen to songs, do some self reflection, literally in the mirror, and moan over the pimples.

what a sad life right?

hmm.. im starting to feel better. managed to go to school today to configure my laptop. Gonna go to the spca tmr for another session with the kitties..

lately this song has been playing on my head. for some reason.
< I stay in Love>
Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone

Although I know
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

I think Mariah Carey had a great voice.. if only she doesn't act so.. bimbo. haha..And i think im suffereing from dysthymia. >.< could be a side effect of being sick for sooo long.. Acck...