A cheap ( its free!) way to get high is to not sleep, and let your body or heart whatever hyperventilate.
That out-of-breath, light-headed feeling and rapid pulses feel as though I have downed gallons of vodka to a lessser extent.
No wonder it's becoming an addiction. Oh dear.
Mama says im going to have breast cancer soon, and i am going to be a fat girl if i stay up late nights :(
Its 5am. I should go sleep >.< sigh.
Each agent, wittingly or unwittingly, is a producer and reproducer of meaning... it is because subjects do not know what they are doing that what they do has more meaning than they know. --- Bourdieu---
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Peeves
Rx's friend called me dolphin.
Its has been ages since pple called me that name. The last time I was called dolphin was in Primary 2, cuz the cheena teacher cannot pronounce my name.
I rememebr my friends calling me weird things, like daphine, jasmine, daisy, daphany,daphone.
Im ok with daffy, cuz its my nickname, but i get pet peeves with people mispronouncing my name as DA-PHA-NY. zzz. Dolphin is bad too. I don't see myself as some aquatic creature who jumps through hula hoops, thanks.
Since this post is about stuff that piss me offfff, the biggest thing that pissed me off is my dad.
As you girls should now, my dad is one big,fat weirdo.
The other night after school, I wanted to watch TV. For those of you who know me, you know I almost NEVER watch TV. But, my dad, who was watching the Tv program just before the show i want to watch, switched off the TV and told me not to watch, because the TV is overheated.
HELLO??!!!! HE HAS BEEN WATCHING TV SINCE 7PM+, AND THE TV NEVER OVERHEAT UNTIL NOW AH? JUST BEFORE MY SHOW?
BETTER STILL, THAT OLD FAG WATCHED TV EVERYDAY OF THE WEEK, ABOUT 3-5 HOURS EACH BLOODY DAY.
and guess what, when i told that to him, he got angry and say, "you see all the burnt marks on the tv? that's from over-watching!So you shouldnt watch!"
Apparently on my plasma tv, there are some 'burnt marks', which obviously is caused by his excessive watching but he says its because of me watching tv. ha ha ha.
OLD FAG: 30 HOURS+ A WEEK ON TV.
ME: LESS THAN 3 HOURS A WEEK ON TV.
Then, he went to bed after switching off the tv. after 10 mins, he woke up, walked to the living room and checked that I didn;t on the tv. I was feeding gigi, and then he say, " you feed her for what? you got skin disease still feed her?"
Wow. Now i have skin disease. Since when was I diagnosed with skin disease?
retarded old fag.
Its has been ages since pple called me that name. The last time I was called dolphin was in Primary 2, cuz the cheena teacher cannot pronounce my name.
I rememebr my friends calling me weird things, like daphine, jasmine, daisy, daphany,daphone.
Im ok with daffy, cuz its my nickname, but i get pet peeves with people mispronouncing my name as DA-PHA-NY. zzz. Dolphin is bad too. I don't see myself as some aquatic creature who jumps through hula hoops, thanks.
Since this post is about stuff that piss me offfff, the biggest thing that pissed me off is my dad.
As you girls should now, my dad is one big,fat weirdo.
The other night after school, I wanted to watch TV. For those of you who know me, you know I almost NEVER watch TV. But, my dad, who was watching the Tv program just before the show i want to watch, switched off the TV and told me not to watch, because the TV is overheated.
HELLO??!!!! HE HAS BEEN WATCHING TV SINCE 7PM+, AND THE TV NEVER OVERHEAT UNTIL NOW AH? JUST BEFORE MY SHOW?
BETTER STILL, THAT OLD FAG WATCHED TV EVERYDAY OF THE WEEK, ABOUT 3-5 HOURS EACH BLOODY DAY.
and guess what, when i told that to him, he got angry and say, "you see all the burnt marks on the tv? that's from over-watching!So you shouldnt watch!"
Apparently on my plasma tv, there are some 'burnt marks', which obviously is caused by his excessive watching but he says its because of me watching tv. ha ha ha.
OLD FAG: 30 HOURS+ A WEEK ON TV.
ME: LESS THAN 3 HOURS A WEEK ON TV.
Then, he went to bed after switching off the tv. after 10 mins, he woke up, walked to the living room and checked that I didn;t on the tv. I was feeding gigi, and then he say, " you feed her for what? you got skin disease still feed her?"
Wow. Now i have skin disease. Since when was I diagnosed with skin disease?
retarded old fag.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
heart. attack.
I think I will die early. Heck, i am sure I will die early. I can feel my heart palpitating and having really fast, irregular pumps. Could be because I sleep at 5am everyday now during term break. Sleeping at this F**&ing hour can seriously make a person very, very depressed.
Hahaha I should treat this as some sort of sick experiment. The effects of late night on health; Physical and mental. Great for my term paper.
Went to Siglap to interview some Australians for my Cross cultural management class. Their accent was pretty thick sia. And one of them was a Spanish-Australian! So cool.. plus he is a coffee artisan, so me and the girls had coffee specially prepared by him. He does really cool designs on the coffee. :)
It basically looks something like above. Pic taken from fotobank.
Im feeling so lonely. Not lonely in the sense that I have no one to hang out with, but because I have no one to connect with. Just someone to listen and share some thoughts, some similarities together. Sigh.
I have been dreaming a lot lately. And 80% of all my dreams, SINCE YOUNG, have been about oceans, seas, of some natural disaster. And I usually feel poignant when i wake up.
Picture from capespirit.com.
In my dreams, the scene is somewhat like that above, but with a more chaotic environment. haha..
Sigh. Can someone teach me how to fall asleep at night.
Hahaha I should treat this as some sort of sick experiment. The effects of late night on health; Physical and mental. Great for my term paper.
Went to Siglap to interview some Australians for my Cross cultural management class. Their accent was pretty thick sia. And one of them was a Spanish-Australian! So cool.. plus he is a coffee artisan, so me and the girls had coffee specially prepared by him. He does really cool designs on the coffee. :)
It basically looks something like above. Pic taken from fotobank.
Im feeling so lonely. Not lonely in the sense that I have no one to hang out with, but because I have no one to connect with. Just someone to listen and share some thoughts, some similarities together. Sigh.
I have been dreaming a lot lately. And 80% of all my dreams, SINCE YOUNG, have been about oceans, seas, of some natural disaster. And I usually feel poignant when i wake up.
Picture from capespirit.com.
In my dreams, the scene is somewhat like that above, but with a more chaotic environment. haha..
Sigh. Can someone teach me how to fall asleep at night.
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