Feeling kinda sad today because I was thinking about some of the people who are close to me.. and how they have changed for the worst. They used to be supportive , non-judgmental and easy-going, but is now replaced by cynicism and crudeness. I wonder if growing up brings up the worst in us, or simply our true colours.

Take for example, a personal opinion on a topic open to interpretation. I understand that everyone is entitled to their own opinions and thoughts, but the way they bring across their views really shows you if this person have thought through his or her words carefully before voicing them. It is saddening that some people have some sort of word-vomit where they just blabber without thinking of the consequences those words have on the people around them.

And people whom I thought I can rely on... well, I think I am better off relying on myself. Ever since the dark days in my late teens, I find it hard to trust people. Somehow or another, I am wary of other's actions and being (overly) distrustful but hey, thats how we survive in this world isn't it? At the end of the day, I'll just be happier trusting in me and being the best for myself. And people wonder why I like to talk and sleep with my stuffed toys.I seriously think the best girlfriend/boyfriend in the world is an improved X99999 milllion version of myself. Haha..I should totally check my mental health for schrizophrenia now.

Unreciprocated (and imagined?)feelings of affinity is a darn sad situation.

I wish I can say this is an emo/depressing post but I think it reflects whats going on in my head, so its more of a reality jolt rather than an emo post.

On a happier note, can't wait for exams to be over so that I can get ready to see the other side of the world! Planning quite a few activities for myself for this year hur hur hur.

Sigh.. can't post any pics of the shoot with sherhan due to unsatisfactory picture quality. lolz... but it was still a fun day! Ended off with steak at Ashtons.. which left me with mild food poisoning the next day.. haha.. And the doctor says I need to exercise more to keep my blood pressure up since it has been on the low side. Sigh. Time to grab my smelly running shoes and run a bit.

Finally did something about my Europe trip today.. Booked tix and stuff.. and I think this trip is gonna cost a freakin bomb. A flight tix between states, or across neighbouring country is on average S$200. And I am travelling to quite a few states and countries.. Lodgings, transport.. its a big headache. I would SOO love to have those travel agencies plan for me. I seriously don't get how people can get the trill out of those F&E trips to a country they have never been before. It is a pain in the ass to find a decent airline that flies there, then you need to compare cost, availability, and whether the airline flies direct or stops over at some airport where you need to bunk in for 10 hours. And thats just for A FLIGHT TICKET TO YOUR DESTINATION. Airport transfer, hotel lodgings, transport for getting around, food, attractions.. Oh.My.

My spring onions grew well! :D Took to planting after gigi passed away.. and it was quite therapeutic I must say. To see them grow day after day.. made me feel pretty happy. HAHA.. and best of all.. I get to snip them off and throw them into my soup when they are long enough.. haha.. now onto my 2nd batch of spring onions :D Trying to get my chilli padi to grow but those darn seeds have been staying sad and shrivelled up in the soil for a week already. Pfff.

Anyway, I am so proud of myself today.. Cuz I got my make up done in 15 mins!! Lol.. I know its sounds normal, but on a daily basis, I need 15 mins to finish putting moisturizer, foundation, blusher, and lipbalm/gloss. Today, I managed to add in eyeshadow and mascara in, within the 15 mins!

And cam-whoring pictures of myself.. HAHA.



Mummy said I looked like a Japanese doll.. lol. Im glad to hear that for once, I dun look Cheena.

In case you noticed, I have changed my boyfriend from Bill Kaulitz to Kim Junsu. HAHA!!

I still love Bill.. but its time for a new face LOL. I am such a bitch. Junsu is so cute, isn't he?

I can't wait for this wednesday's photo shoot with sherhan!! If the pictures are unidentifiable, then i will put them up in my next post. LOL

Here we come, white foundation and no-eyebrows! :D

Week 10. Blasted.

I WANT MY XIAO LONG BAOS. Week 10 in school is horrible.. having to go back to school everyday for meeting is no fun. And it is so hard to study when the people around are making the environment so unconducive. Guys bitching at the top of their voices (a SMU phenomeneon), couples gg lovey-dovey beside me and giggling at financial graphs.. Cough cough.

Last weekend was fun though. Celebrated RX's bday at JB. We had crabs and other seafood, and played games using mantou(s). We had a total of 48 mantous, a plate of bittergoud with eggs, salted prawns with eggs, and a plate of plain rice as the 'punishment' for the loser in the game. RX's stomach was so bloated, he looked like he is about to float up to the sky like the Aunty dunno-what in Harry Potter.

I can't wait for this week to be overrrrr..