Willkommen

Feeling kinda sad today because I was thinking about some of the people who are close to me.. and how they have changed for the worst. They used to be supportive , non-judgmental and easy-going, but is now replaced by cynicism and crudeness. I wonder if growing up brings up the worst in us, or simply our true colours.

Take for example, a personal opinion on a topic open to interpretation. I understand that everyone is entitled to their own opinions and thoughts, but the way they bring across their views really shows you if this person have thought through his or her words carefully before voicing them. It is saddening that some people have some sort of word-vomit where they just blabber without thinking of the consequences those words have on the people around them.

And people whom I thought I can rely on... well, I think I am better off relying on myself. Ever since the dark days in my late teens, I find it hard to trust people. Somehow or another, I am wary of other's actions and being (overly) distrustful but hey, thats how we survive in this world isn't it? At the end of the day, I'll just be happier trusting in me and being the best for myself. And people wonder why I like to talk and sleep with my stuffed toys.I seriously think the best girlfriend/boyfriend in the world is an improved X99999 milllion version of myself. Haha..I should totally check my mental health for schrizophrenia now.

Unreciprocated (and imagined?)feelings of affinity is a darn sad situation.

I wish I can say this is an emo/depressing post but I think it reflects whats going on in my head, so its more of a reality jolt rather than an emo post.

On a happier note, can't wait for exams to be over so that I can get ready to see the other side of the world! Planning quite a few activities for myself for this year hur hur hur.