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I was sitting in my room today, staring at the 30-page psychological review paper in Times New Roman font size 8, and thinking, why on earth am I studying on a Chinese New Year holiday?

Because I have 2 tests on Thursday, and a business essay due on Friday. And then, I would need to rush home to prepare the slides for my presentation, and be ready for the group meeting in less than 24hours.

And I only have 2 days left to study, with 10 more such articles to look through, and 2 entire textbooks to swallow.

So, as my eyes skimmed across the tiny columns of words in the academic article and threatened to overspill overdued tears of frustration, I told myself, suck it up girl, you aint got no choice.

So I took a short nap after a while, admidst the heat of the afternoon, and realized what a big mistake it was. I don't know if its just me or what, but sleeping under disgustingly HOT conditions brings nightmares. So i tossed about fitfully in my sleep, and just as I felt myself drifting off to sleep, somehow, something just made me bolt back to reality and then i have to try to fall asleep all over again.

And that stupid cycle repeated about 4 times within an hour. I was so pissed, because i couldn't even take a simple nap. Someone up there hates me.

And when I do finally sleep, I had a freaking irritating nightmare that seemed so real. There was blood and gore in it, and weirdly enough, I could feel the pain that was inflicted on me in the nightmare. But it wasnt just the physical pain of a knife dragging across my palm and the spray of blood across my lap, but the emotional pain i felt that made me so suffocated.

Thankfully, or not, I jerked awake when i heard my brother's voice somewhere in the house. Thank you for having such a loud voice little bro. I was so disoriented when i woke up, my shirt soaked with sweat, and my eyes frantically searching for something. I think i was looking for a little boy whom i was protecting in my nightmare. Ha ha ha..

After finding the strength to drag myself out of bed, i saw a small ray of light peeking out of my curtains, and when i drew them back, i was pleasantly surprised to see a pink and blue sky dotted with little fluffy clouds.Suddenly, everything looked so..... serene. It was as though hell spat me out from its bowels and back onto earth. Mummy asked me to collect dinner from my grandma, and i was glad to find an excuse to get out of the house. Because i love the evening, and i think i really needed a nice quiet walk.

There's just something about the setting sun and the colours of the sky that soothes the nerves. Not to mention the lovely breeze and the rustle of the leaves. Looking up at the tiny square piece of sky that is uninhibited by HDB flats is... orgasmic. Haha.. I dunno why. But it just feels that way.

It just reminds me that tmr i will see the same thing again because life goes on( unless i die anytime btw now and then), and I have no reason to remain trapped in time, tormented by hopeless nightmares.

I can't wait for my holiday! One more week! Suck it up, girl.

Literacy constipation

Gah. Havr to write a memo. By tonight. So uninspired sia. Been hearing some songs over and over again ( other than Tokio Hotel) and Leona Lewis' Happy got stuck in my head.

Someone once told me that you have to choose, What you win or lose,
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances, Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain, Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side, And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge, My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy.

Looking forward to week 8.. term break. and get the first air/water/space ticket out of singapore. Its so stifling here.

PsssT!

I have a sudden obsession with German guys. Tokio Hotel being my No.1 object of obsession. Lol.. I LOVE BILL KAULITZ!!




It's raining today
The blinds are shut
It's always the same
I tried all the games
that they play
But they made me insane

Life on tv
It's random
It means nothing to me
I'm writing down
What I cannot see
Wanna wake up in a dream

happy bday to me~~

IM 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TWENTY-ONE.
twenty-one.
er shi yi.

hehehehehe okie im happy because its my birthday, but not so happy because im old.
being old is.... old.

ahh just sprouting nonsense. hehe celebrated the first day of my 3-day birthday marathon with the closest people in my life!!

DAY 1: PARTYY WITH MY GIRLS!!! at sembawang park!thanks for coming and for the presents my dear girls! had dinner at beaulieu house and drinks with hannney at a pub at night. though my drink was on fire and the straw literally melted into half, i loved it cuz of my bestest bestie. :D thanks hanney!! hahahaha

DAY 2: Perhaps the only spoiler of the day was the 3 hour long econs make-up lecture in school. But prof was nice, and I had my best friends in SMU to make it a glorious morning! ( and afternoon) Thanks for the Happy Meal Vinny!! :DDD so sweet of u!
Went to bottletree garden at Khatib in the evening with my granny, cousins and aunts and uncles. Had my favourite chilli crabs!! took the swan ride with my little cousin Joy. Lucky she didn't fall into the water while Rx and I were paddling. Else her mum is sooooo gonna kill me.


Hello peeps!! Im at bottle treeeeee~~


And here I am, going to tuck into my FOOD!


My bro and cousin. Looking good, boys~~


Ah Bao's way of telling us how he feels. Feeling silly? muahahahahaha



Ms.Joy! Excited to get onto the swan!


Bon Voyage~~catch some crabs for supper guys...


Moi CAKE!!! customized and delivered! whoo hoo~!


We look like a complete family. Papa, Mama and a lot of kids. hmm..

DAY 3: Dinner at Angus steak house with my baobao. Our meal cost a grand total of $259.55. haha yes we are raving lunatics for spending that amount of money on dinner. But the wagyu beef was F***ING FANTASTIC!!!!! tasted a bit like bak kwa but the texture was really smooth. and the emat is sooo juicy!! blogging about it makes me drool now... slurp..


Me: LETS GO EAT!!!!! ( Rx was lying on my bed. Apparently he waited too long for me to get ready.. hehehehe)


Me: Why aren't u moving ah bao... Pffff.


Rx: YAY finally on the train. That woman is crazy.. make me wait so long. Hungry sia.



Us: Wheeeeee! Angus Steakhouse!


Us:Ooooh lala cant wait for the food to arrive..


Me: Cheers!! ( I hope i dun get drunk after this glass of white wine. still havent do hmk and readings lei.)


Rx: MY $112 WAGYU BEEF. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAAHHA!!!


Me: Im a satisfied customer!!!!


Me: Im sleeeeepy. But happy. cuz got prawns, salad, clam chowder, bread, beef, mango sorbet and white wine in my stomach!!


Rx: NAH IM NOT SLEEPY... The beef is so YUMMY!!!!! YUUUUUMMMMMYYYYYY


Rx: Bye bye nini! im going home! Happy Birthday!!! muacks =3