Bye Bye travelling 2011

I think Im done travelling for the year. My bank account is at a disgustingly all-time low, and I desperately need to save up for my grad trip next summer.

Sigh... NOW I wish I can just strike toto or 4D. :(

Went to Batam last week and had seafood which = diarrhoea. The massage was not bad, but 3 hours was wayyy too long, not to mention that some parts of my naked body was exposed to the aircon throughout. Pics of the Batam trip on Facebook if you wanna see how the interior of the resort looks like! I must say that I was plesantly surprised by the level of cleanliness in the room. Spacious with clean bedding, and quite a few channels on TV. Mini fridge was clean and functioning, and there was a stainless steel flask for boiling water. ( YAY for not having those horrid coiled-rod thingies that tend to corrode into a beastly green color)

Had tea with Mel and Han at Antoinette this afternoon! Original plan was to watch Monte Carlo alone at Kallang since I needed to kill time before meeting my uni friends at 7pm. Well, bitching session always win over a lonesome movie date with myself lolol. I think I missed out on A LOT with ma galz ever since I started preparing for my Europe trip in May :( Gotta catch up and start going out more with them before school starts.

Catch-up with my dearest uni friends was awesome!! We had dim sum and then dau huay and youtiao at Geylang :DD Our chatting session was really nice, catching up on life and school and how we might not grad in time because of the pathetic number of class vacancies. Friend A then started talking about how she thinks she will end up dying alone with 10 cats because she has never had a BF her whole life, while friend B looks on forlornly and wishes he can find an intelligent girl to be his GF. And I just stare at my bi dan porridge and wonder if I will also end dying alone with 100 hamsters by my bedside- marriage is not on my cards at this point.

I used to be all excited at getting married, cuz it is like the ultimate romantic ending to a relationship. But after having a relationship for 3 years, marriage just seems like a tool to legitimize having children and to apply for an HDB flat. Not saying that marriage is solely for those 2 purposes, just that all the hard work, planning and sacrifices that comes with marriage erases all the Disney-like properties of marriage. The more I think about marrying someone, the more I find marriage exhausting and cumbersome. When I think about "sharing my life with my husband", I think about:

1) What if I don't get a job that provides an income as high or higher than his? How will it shape the power dynamics in the relationship? If he earns more, will he offer to pay more of the expenses, and then complain about it one day? If I earn more, will he feel inferior? ( Guys and their ego thingy)

2) I will have to face this guy at MY home before work and after work and in bed. Does his habits suit mine? What if he has habits that I cannot live with?

3) Values. What if we don't share the same values towards work, child-rearing, politics, religion, etc etc? What if he criticizes what I believe in?

4) What if we get bored of each other, or get irritated at each other? ( 50+ years together can be hell; just look at the past 22 years with parents) What if one of us meet someone else who we like?

And the list goes on... byebye,fairytale story. you were fun when I didn't have to think so much about all these questions.